111th post, make a wish!

Right now, there are no less than 4 sticks of gum in my mouth.

Am...having...a...standard...mental....meltdown....

(shit, that bubble popped the wrong way)

What it amounts to is that I'm applying to all these things for NO REASON, because I'm not going to get them.

Main one on my mind: Oxford.

Due: The 1st

Currently have: No recommendations

Missing: 2

Must turn in: A term paper. Preferably a good one. In the subject I want to study.

Present state of mind:

Basically, I didn't know it existed until yesterday, because it's not through the school, and I've got A TRILLION other things to do. I've got an EGYPTIAN QUIZ I DIDN'T STUDY FOR, CAN I PLEASE TAKE A VALIUM, and 90 pounds worth of papers to read, write, get through, chew through, and overall just process in some way.

I have ingested so much shit (entire box of Godiva chocolates...Havarti cheese slice upon Havarti cheese slice...bad coffee...parfaits....Hershey syrup) in the past 12 hours that I'm a walking, talking advertisement for The Bernstein Bears and Too Much Junk Food.

At least I am blowing some super, empty bubbles.

I am now emailing the head of the art history department to ask for a recommendation. I think recommendations are STUPID. NO ONE READS THEM.

I AM STUPID. NO ONE LISTENS TO ME!